Fuck. What is happening? I’m in way over my head and I feel like I’ve just jumped into something and I can’t go back. I’m scared as hell and I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t even know what I want. I’m not even sure I’m ready for this. Everything is so intense and it’s changing everything around me. I feel the transition coming and I’m very confused. I’m drowning and I thought I was dreaming. What the hell happened to me?