i’m feeling all kinds of antsy right now and it’s making me very jittery and nervous. there’s just some things i’ll never be ready for no matter how hard i try to prepare myself. today is one of those days. i can’t say i haven’t been through this before, but i can say that the feeling is no good and i’m definitely feeling it right now. when will i ever get the hang of this? when will i ever not be so damn emotional about such minuscule things? i just want to get away.
as content as i am, i do sometimes wish i never mixed my entire life into this because before all this, i was able to stand as an individual and do what i wanted and be who i wanted. now, not so much. i’m not saying i hate it, but it definitely has its limitations on me but i guess that’s just what happens when i put myself in these kinds of situations.
the feeling of your insides churning and twisting is what i’m feeling right now. i hate it. just leave already so i can get through this faster.